![]() Binding my breasts pretending to be a man makes me feel like a sub-par stand-in and leaves me feeling insecure and inadequate. But I'm feeling increasingly disengaged and even turned off by our pegging scenes. Sometime like this: "It's always turned me on to be this hot woman in latex fucking her hot and bound dude. you're gonna have a lot of sex over the next three or four decade that makes you feel terrible. So if you don't say something and these role-play trends continue on their current course. Oh, and this kind of sex-you pegging him-constitutes roughly a third or more of your total sexual activity. and you've hesitated to say something because doing so might make him feel shamed. To recap: your husband is asking you to do something that makes you feel sad, uncomfortable, and ashamed (bind your breasts, pretend to be a dude, role-play dude-on-dude sex). To be fair to him (which I want to be) our hetero-ish sex and/or other kinky sex is still awesome and he seems to enjoy it just as much and we have it just as frequently. Am I reading too much into this and projecting? Is this more about my feelings of inadequacy than my partner? What do I do, Dan? I don't want to keep having regular sex that turns me off and makes me feel like a stand-in for the gay sex I imagine he wants to be having. Because of our conflicting interests on this, we axed both possibilities and have just stayed (I think) happily monogamous. I hate this idea for all of the stereotypical reasons monogamous folk often do, I fear my reaction, being left-out, what it would do to our intimacy to see him get rock hard for someone else, etc. Instead of being poly, he was more interesting in bring extra people into our bedroom. He was not interested in being poly because he was anticipated an imbalance in the extra-marital relationships (that I'd get laid a bunch more, and he rarely would which is maybe true since we live in a mid-sized, conservative town, and he can be shy). I was potentially open to the idea of being poly (separately, I'm not interested in sharing our intimacy). So maybe my other option is opening the relationship up so he can get his gay sex on, if that's what he's really after? We had discussed this potential in the past, many years ago, and never got anywhere. Nothing about it makes me feel sexy, or like I'm "part of it'- anymore, if that makes sense. I said yes, but after, I realized I had reached a point where I felt like a sub-par stand-in sex-prop, and felt turned off and embarrassed afterwards. The last time I fucked him, he asked if I'd be open to binding my tits and not wearing my sexy strap-on sesh lingerie. Now that this is how our normal pegging experiences are going, I'm feeling increasingly disengaged and even turned off by this sex, which makes me feel all sorts of things-sad, uncomfortable, ashamed. The first few times it was fine because it was new and different and he was enjoying himself. For example, our pegging play has turned into a lot of him sucking the strap-on and wanting me to role-play and dirty talk about him being a cum slut for hot man cock. a hot husband is trying to reenact his gay fantasies with his wife. However, over the last year or so, the pegging has stopped feeling like what it is (a hot lady fucking her hot husband) and more like. He would discuss how much it turned him on to watch a woman in latex fucking a bound dude, (which I was happy to reenact!), or show me a hot gay sex scene he had just enjoyed. For example I knew he watched both pegging porn and gay porn and I was totally cool with both. For a long while, I regarded his affinity for pegging, and his appreciation for sex with dudes, as the separate things they are. well, more and more gay and I'm not sure I'm enjoying it anymore. The trouble is, the more time goes on, the more our pegging sex-which plays a significant role in our sex life (maybe 30-40%?)-is feeling. The dude is a freak and his anything-goes attitude has always been a huge turn on. Beyond just the experimentation he has a long list of kinks he's really into and I love to oblige. Pretty much any kink you can name, we've tried it, and we've spent the better part of six years having the best sex of our lives and experimenting with anything and everything we could both think of. ![]() My partner is a wonderful 36 year old bi man who is a super freak, and we're monogamous and have been together six years. I don't have any specific fetishes, but I'm open (I'm down for switch BDSM, furry play, pegging, pain play, you get the picture) and love to have my partner enjoy themselves. I'm a 36-year-old cis hetero-flexible woman that's pretty much been the definition of GGG.
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